New year blues

*sigh*

It's been awhile but I kept my promise of making more post.

My day is not any better to be quite honest you guys. There is nothing more that I hate that I keep being reminder that there is something wrong with me. I do this myself for encouragements but it feels that if repeated over and over and over again, it gets really frustrating and annoying.

I always do my part with no questions. Never questioning authorities, that how I was raised. But if people keep pointing that you're worthless beyond relief, that's below the belt and the line.

I was never to question any types of authorities because they what they are doing but if someone else is doing it for you when you have the same intentions, you just sit and rest. But they have to point out that I'm not doing my part when I just finished something that they asked me to do. Is that fair? When you're too busy to help someone? When you're fixing a problem just because they are too lazy to fix themselves?

I have no intention to be complaining this much but sometimes they will make you feel worthless even though you have been doing the same thing  over and over again for years without any questioning them, at all.

I never get appreciation from the things I do. I never get the respect that I need and yet, authorities like this keeps people from rising up.

I never wanted to be like this. I had dreams to change the world and yet, they only want me to do what they want. To be their insurance policy. Because they think they know what kind of future we are facing but in fact, they are more clueless than the current generation.

We see everything has possibilities for great change and yet this type of authority forbade you from doing this change. They are manipulative.They are deceptive. They think they know better than everybody else. But in fact, they are just as clueless like the rest of us.

Sorry for the long rant. I just need to get this out of my chest.